Hi everyone!
Just a short blog, since it is 1am, to let you know that we are now back.
In short, the first week went really well, as I was very mindful of what I said and did...
The second week PMT kicked in and tomorrow (or rather later today) will bring the 'clean slate' spanking plus a day of relearning for the both of us :(
It is amazing how fast you forget things.
On a good note there was no control issues...probably not because I was so good, but because there just was not much really to control :)
Living in a hotel for two weeks, not having to cook or clean, or keep that darn health diary...no housework etc...oh such was the life!
I have a lot of reading to catch up on over the next few days on what you have all been doing.
I have thought about you all often and wondered how you were all getting on. The country we were in did not allow gmail to often and certainly not blogger! Gosh I was going through withdrawals!
Anyway, love and hugs to you all! Gosh it is so good to be back!!
Saturday, 1 December 2012
Thursday, 15 November 2012
Two Weeks Away
Just popping in to say...bye for two weeks!!
Hope you all stay spank free and in good spirits.
No distancings!!!
Will be thinking of you all often....really I will be :) You have all become good 'friends' that I am going to miss over the next few weeks.
So this is it...BEHAVE!
Hugs :)
Hope you all stay spank free and in good spirits.
No distancings!!!
Will be thinking of you all often....really I will be :) You have all become good 'friends' that I am going to miss over the next few weeks.
So this is it...BEHAVE!
Hugs :)
Dam it...
So yesterday I said that it was 'potentially my last blog for two weeks'...well it is not.
I have a question...
What do you do when you are distancing and your husband distance's too?
Yesterday we had a 'special' night planned.
I waited all day, excitement building and was so glad to see him finally come home.
Ok, I was a little feisty and sassy. Had a little corner time to settle down.
Anyway, to cut a long story short, I ended up with a spanking to deal with the little feistiness.
I was angry. I went into that distancing cave. Crawled in there and refused to come out.
The Silence left me to it......and went into his own distancing cave.
He didn't deal with me. He should of. It should of been a darn good dealing with too. But he was heading into his own cave. He wouldn't talk to me, gave me short answers when he did. This is something new. I don't know how to deal with it.
I am still angry that he chose a spanking over our planned night. I know it is his choice as Hoh when he deals with things. But he could of waited.
Last night was going to be special as itis was the last night that we could do that 'special' thing before we share our hotel room with our daughter for two weeks. Now it is just a missed opportunity.
I know some people find that spanking is sexually arousing. I don't. He knows this. To me discipline and loving does not go together in the same sentence, and certainly not on the same night. (Ok, so a few taps to the bottom or legs is ok, but not a spanking) This is just the way I am. In some ways I am envious of those that get a spanking then (or later) end up loving each other.
So I guess we both stuffed up.
Our daughter came home, so nothing ended up being able to be dealt with. And knowing this (how can I be so stupid), and knowing that it will now be over two weeks before ANYTHING can be dealt with....I blatantly got up and slept in the spare room.
I ended up back in our bed eventually, nearly two hours later, as the spare room has no fan and is incredibly hot. When I came back The Silence was still awake and said that he was about to come and get me. So I told him I was not back for his benefit, just that the room was too hot. Sigh.
Lets just keep pushing shall we :(
I had repeatedly suggested over the last few weeks that he take leave on Thursday..that is today. Just so that we could have a day together before we left...he chose not too. So I am angry about that too.
Nice to know that his work is more important. (I know, that is an unfair statement, it is just where I am at right now)
Sick of banging my head on the wall. I want him to step up and take a firmer hand. I need it. I am not the sort of person to say 'I will submit to you and be a good wife' without a fight. Oh I know, I asked for this, but it is not in my natural nature to be submissive. I do buck the system, while on the other hand try to be everything I need to be.
I know that he does not like the discipline side of DD. He understands it, but hates it. Hates doing it. I, on the other need to know that he is stepping up into that role. Half the time when I stuff up he does not deal with it. It is so hit and miss. Sometimes I don't know whether I am Arthur or Martha :(
Everytime he does not step up, I take a part of control back. He is giving me permission to be in control. So confusing...
Anyway, it is nearly time to take him his morning wake up coffee. I have done this for years. I don't feel like doing it this morning, but it would feel so wrong and horrible not too.
Maybe a coffee delivered with an implement.......
On a more exciting note...we got woken this morning by the ringing of the telephone at 1.40am to be told that we are now first time Grandparents! That bought us together (not hugging) for a few short minutes.
We are Grandparents...OH MY GOSH!!!
I have a question...
What do you do when you are distancing and your husband distance's too?
Yesterday we had a 'special' night planned.
I waited all day, excitement building and was so glad to see him finally come home.
Ok, I was a little feisty and sassy. Had a little corner time to settle down.
Anyway, to cut a long story short, I ended up with a spanking to deal with the little feistiness.
I was angry. I went into that distancing cave. Crawled in there and refused to come out.
The Silence left me to it......and went into his own distancing cave.
He didn't deal with me. He should of. It should of been a darn good dealing with too. But he was heading into his own cave. He wouldn't talk to me, gave me short answers when he did. This is something new. I don't know how to deal with it.
I am still angry that he chose a spanking over our planned night. I know it is his choice as Hoh when he deals with things. But he could of waited.
Last night was going to be special as it
I know some people find that spanking is sexually arousing. I don't. He knows this. To me discipline and loving does not go together in the same sentence, and certainly not on the same night. (Ok, so a few taps to the bottom or legs is ok, but not a spanking) This is just the way I am. In some ways I am envious of those that get a spanking then (or later) end up loving each other.
So I guess we both stuffed up.
Our daughter came home, so nothing ended up being able to be dealt with. And knowing this (how can I be so stupid), and knowing that it will now be over two weeks before ANYTHING can be dealt with....I blatantly got up and slept in the spare room.
I ended up back in our bed eventually, nearly two hours later, as the spare room has no fan and is incredibly hot. When I came back The Silence was still awake and said that he was about to come and get me. So I told him I was not back for his benefit, just that the room was too hot. Sigh.
Lets just keep pushing shall we :(
I had repeatedly suggested over the last few weeks that he take leave on Thursday..that is today. Just so that we could have a day together before we left...he chose not too. So I am angry about that too.
Nice to know that his work is more important. (I know, that is an unfair statement, it is just where I am at right now)
Sick of banging my head on the wall. I want him to step up and take a firmer hand. I need it. I am not the sort of person to say 'I will submit to you and be a good wife' without a fight. Oh I know, I asked for this, but it is not in my natural nature to be submissive. I do buck the system, while on the other hand try to be everything I need to be.
I know that he does not like the discipline side of DD. He understands it, but hates it. Hates doing it. I, on the other need to know that he is stepping up into that role. Half the time when I stuff up he does not deal with it. It is so hit and miss. Sometimes I don't know whether I am Arthur or Martha :(
Everytime he does not step up, I take a part of control back. He is giving me permission to be in control. So confusing...
Anyway, it is nearly time to take him his morning wake up coffee. I have done this for years. I don't feel like doing it this morning, but it would feel so wrong and horrible not too.
Maybe a coffee delivered with an implement.......
On a more exciting note...we got woken this morning by the ringing of the telephone at 1.40am to be told that we are now first time Grandparents! That bought us together (not hugging) for a few short minutes.
We are Grandparents...OH MY GOSH!!!
Wednesday, 14 November 2012
Dying to Self
This is potentially my last post for the next 2 weeks as we are only two days away from going overseas. I am hoping that in some way I can do at least one post while we are away....what am I going to do without the friends I have made on here to keep me sane?
I have been reading the blogs this morning and have come to realise that though we all live different lives, in other countries, different conditions, we are really all the same.
We all follow (or try too) our husbands. We all try to be obedient, submissive, respectful, supportive wives/partners.
And on some days we all fail. (in fact I am beginning to think that we all seem to melt down at the same time, this is starting to be confirmed more and more)
Three out of four blogs I read this morning said that they were not in a good place right now. And all I want to do is make it better for them...this is my natural instinct. I hate to see people hurting.
I am new this, I can give no advice...and that makes me feel helpless. I cannot change their circumstances. I cannot give some amazing wisdom to make the world right again.
I was thinking about that, and this is what I have come up with. Agree or disagree, I really don't mind, as these are just a thoughts.
So here we go...remember these are just my thoughts. Not gospel about DD.
When we decided to DD, I found there was a natural progression that we all seem to go through. Both as wives and HOH's.
Emotions seem to run rampant, we tend to test the waters to establish boundaries. (sometimes those same waters let you drown when suddenly the boundaries change)
We wives seem to withdraw more, for a wee while, which I think is why suddenly the dreaded 5th D comes into play (distancing) so early on in DD.
We don't do this distancing deliberately (ok sometimes we do) ...we use it to be able to sort things out in our time, not in HOH's time... We are having to deal with emotions that often are new to us, it is easier to go into the D cave than having to deal with more emotions when we are trying so hard to deal with the ones we already have.
On the other hand....we use distancing because we are angry (usually in my case..sigh). Suddenly we are faced with the fact that our new selves cannot deal with things the way our 'old selves' dealt with them.
You can feel trapped. With no where to turn. It is a horrible feeling that pushes you into that safe place.
Without some form a daily submission/discipline in some form or another you end up feeling lost in space. There needs to be accountability to the HOH everyday.
It does not take long to be afraid that the HOH has forgotten you, leaving you feeling like he does not love you, does not care, that he is not on board this boat that you are paddling, sometimes up stream against the current if he lets 'rules' slide, or ignores the behaviour you have agreed on to change.
I guess heading into a new DD relationship is like dying. Dying to self. Dying to your old ways, the way you have previously dealt with things suddenly change. You are on an unsure footing.
If you are dying to yourself, though your personality and character essentially remains the same...do you go through a grieving process, subconsciously? Even though most times, we wives are the ones that initiate DD?
Grieving is a personal process, there is no one 'right' way to do so, nor does it follow in order.
1) Denial and Isolation -
We block out words and hide from the facts. This is a temporary response that carrries us through - distancing.
2) Anger -
Emotionally, we may resent the HOH for causing us pain or for not dealing with issues rights away. We feel guilty for being angry, or failing. This often makes us more angry.
3) Bargaining -
The normal reaction to feelings of helplessness and vulnerability is often a need to regain control. When we have been in control ofr so long, the losss of this can be terrigying, bringing up that stirring in the pit of your stomach.
4) Depression -
It is our quiet preparation to separate ourselves from the old life into the new one. Can also be when we feel at a loss to how we are taking so long to change. That things, as much as we want them to change, will always be the same. (this by the way is not true..You do change! Little by little, or by leaps and bounds)
5) Acceptance -
That this is the way things are now. Makes each day easier to deal with. It is not an acceptance of 'oh well, suck it up baby' but more of an acceptance that comes with each little bit of submission, each little bit of obedience to the HOH. This does not mean that each time it is easier, we are females, we are complex...what we feel oneday is not the same as what we could be feeling tomorrow. But each acceptance time I think becomes longer, more settled. (Even if only by a few minutes..calculating on my own progress in one area, I should be more accepting and settled in about 97 years)
6) Reconstruction and Working Through - (OTK helps with this :)
This is the point that we start to work out the 'hows, why's and what if's' in a DD relationship. We start to work on other techniques to deal with issues.
We start to communicate to our loved ones what we need, how are we going to deal with this and that. One of the best things about DD, is that communication opens up like never before. There are times when it is absent, but you know that you can talk about concerns when your head is in the right space. It could mean you end up OTK or OTB, but hey, if you have to be 'butt up' to communicate......
Ok, so these are just my thoughts, and you are finally at the end of the blog (sorry it was so long)
I have been reading the blogs this morning and have come to realise that though we all live different lives, in other countries, different conditions, we are really all the same.
We all follow (or try too) our husbands. We all try to be obedient, submissive, respectful, supportive wives/partners.
And on some days we all fail. (in fact I am beginning to think that we all seem to melt down at the same time, this is starting to be confirmed more and more)
Three out of four blogs I read this morning said that they were not in a good place right now. And all I want to do is make it better for them...this is my natural instinct. I hate to see people hurting.
I am new this, I can give no advice...and that makes me feel helpless. I cannot change their circumstances. I cannot give some amazing wisdom to make the world right again.
I was thinking about that, and this is what I have come up with. Agree or disagree, I really don't mind, as these are just a thoughts.
So here we go...remember these are just my thoughts. Not gospel about DD.
When we decided to DD, I found there was a natural progression that we all seem to go through. Both as wives and HOH's.
Emotions seem to run rampant, we tend to test the waters to establish boundaries. (sometimes those same waters let you drown when suddenly the boundaries change)
We wives seem to withdraw more, for a wee while, which I think is why suddenly the dreaded 5th D comes into play (distancing) so early on in DD.
We don't do this distancing deliberately (ok sometimes we do) ...we use it to be able to sort things out in our time, not in HOH's time... We are having to deal with emotions that often are new to us, it is easier to go into the D cave than having to deal with more emotions when we are trying so hard to deal with the ones we already have.
On the other hand....we use distancing because we are angry (usually in my case..sigh). Suddenly we are faced with the fact that our new selves cannot deal with things the way our 'old selves' dealt with them.
You can feel trapped. With no where to turn. It is a horrible feeling that pushes you into that safe place.
Without some form a daily submission/discipline in some form or another you end up feeling lost in space. There needs to be accountability to the HOH everyday.
It does not take long to be afraid that the HOH has forgotten you, leaving you feeling like he does not love you, does not care, that he is not on board this boat that you are paddling, sometimes up stream against the current if he lets 'rules' slide, or ignores the behaviour you have agreed on to change.
I guess heading into a new DD relationship is like dying. Dying to self. Dying to your old ways, the way you have previously dealt with things suddenly change. You are on an unsure footing.
If you are dying to yourself, though your personality and character essentially remains the same...do you go through a grieving process, subconsciously? Even though most times, we wives are the ones that initiate DD?
Grieving is a personal process, there is no one 'right' way to do so, nor does it follow in order.
1) Denial and Isolation -
We block out words and hide from the facts. This is a temporary response that carrries us through - distancing.
2) Anger -
Emotionally, we may resent the HOH for causing us pain or for not dealing with issues rights away. We feel guilty for being angry, or failing. This often makes us more angry.
3) Bargaining -
The normal reaction to feelings of helplessness and vulnerability is often a need to regain control. When we have been in control ofr so long, the losss of this can be terrigying, bringing up that stirring in the pit of your stomach.
4) Depression -
It is our quiet preparation to separate ourselves from the old life into the new one. Can also be when we feel at a loss to how we are taking so long to change. That things, as much as we want them to change, will always be the same. (this by the way is not true..You do change! Little by little, or by leaps and bounds)
5) Acceptance -
That this is the way things are now. Makes each day easier to deal with. It is not an acceptance of 'oh well, suck it up baby' but more of an acceptance that comes with each little bit of submission, each little bit of obedience to the HOH. This does not mean that each time it is easier, we are females, we are complex...what we feel oneday is not the same as what we could be feeling tomorrow. But each acceptance time I think becomes longer, more settled. (Even if only by a few minutes..calculating on my own progress in one area, I should be more accepting and settled in about 97 years)
6) Reconstruction and Working Through - (OTK helps with this :)
This is the point that we start to work out the 'hows, why's and what if's' in a DD relationship. We start to work on other techniques to deal with issues.
We start to communicate to our loved ones what we need, how are we going to deal with this and that. One of the best things about DD, is that communication opens up like never before. There are times when it is absent, but you know that you can talk about concerns when your head is in the right space. It could mean you end up OTK or OTB, but hey, if you have to be 'butt up' to communicate......
Ok, so these are just my thoughts, and you are finally at the end of the blog (sorry it was so long)
Tuesday, 13 November 2012
Spank Free!!
39 hours spank free...spank free...spank free...woohoo...wooohooooooo!!!!
Though I am sure that The Silence was pushing my buttons late last night to get me to say something...because he was just so annoying!
Probably didn't help that I was going:
'Na na na nah na Can't touch this'
I think he had withdrawals... (so surprised he didn't say maintenance or reminder spankings)
He did keep reminding me not to be sassy sassy sassy :( But it was just such a good feeling. Not a good feeling having to do corner time though at 11:50pm :(
By the time he wakes up it is going to be 40 hours!!! Oh the 40 hour spank free famine!!!!
Well..
Did I tell you I was spank free for almost 40 hours? I have..oh ok :)
This next bit is not DD related, but I wanted to write about it anyway.
Late yesterday we found out that our daughter will be leaving us in 6 months to go to the other side of the country for a course that she would like to do :(
Though it is good that she has been accepted (through a phone call and email, not officially yet by mail), and we were hoping she would be, it was a bit of a shock that she will be leaving us in just 7 weeks time.
Our last child is flying the nest :(
I thought I was ready...now I am not so sure. She just seems so young to be going out into the wide world, even though the course she is doing is live in, and there are many other young people there her age as well, who is going to give her 'mum' hugs when she needs them?
I will suck it up just like I did when our son left home nearly 5 years ago. I won't bawl at the airport (who am I kidding?) I will be the perfect wife and not let my emotions run wild by taking it out on The Silence (and again..who am I kidding?)
The course she is doing is extremely intensive. Time on the computer/phone is limited as there are a lot of assignment and practical assessments that need to be done. Probably once a week she will have enough time to contact us...that and the fact that there is a time difference of a few hours.
Moving along to last night and the Awards Night...
Made it!!!
And what a feeling it was, when at the end they announced, as all the graduates stood on the stage:
'Ladies and Gentlemen, the graduating class of 2012'
And there stood our daughter. So proud of her, as this year for her has been the year from hell. But she made it, she passed! And we can be proud of her, not just academically, but in all the areas she has overcome, become stronger in herself. There have been times this year that as a 16 year old she has had to deal with issues that would have floored some adults.
And what a great feeling it was knowing that it was our last EVER awards night that we had to suffer through!! Some of the other parents were so envious. As we were walking out there were several saying how lucky we were.
Ok maybe it is not that bad, at least not now that they have changed the set up. The speeches were long though...very long :(
Back to ttwd now..
Did I tell you that it is almost 40 hours spank free? Oh, yes I did...
So I guess this is now the end of this blog :)
Though I am sure that The Silence was pushing my buttons late last night to get me to say something...because he was just so annoying!
Probably didn't help that I was going:
'Na na na nah na Can't touch this'
I think he had withdrawals... (so surprised he didn't say maintenance or reminder spankings)
He did keep reminding me not to be sassy sassy sassy :( But it was just such a good feeling. Not a good feeling having to do corner time though at 11:50pm :(
By the time he wakes up it is going to be 40 hours!!! Oh the 40 hour spank free famine!!!!
Well..
Did I tell you I was spank free for almost 40 hours? I have..oh ok :)
This next bit is not DD related, but I wanted to write about it anyway.
Late yesterday we found out that our daughter will be leaving us in 6 months to go to the other side of the country for a course that she would like to do :(
Though it is good that she has been accepted (through a phone call and email, not officially yet by mail), and we were hoping she would be, it was a bit of a shock that she will be leaving us in just 7 weeks time.
Our last child is flying the nest :(
I thought I was ready...now I am not so sure. She just seems so young to be going out into the wide world, even though the course she is doing is live in, and there are many other young people there her age as well, who is going to give her 'mum' hugs when she needs them?
I will suck it up just like I did when our son left home nearly 5 years ago. I won't bawl at the airport (who am I kidding?) I will be the perfect wife and not let my emotions run wild by taking it out on The Silence (and again..who am I kidding?)
The course she is doing is extremely intensive. Time on the computer/phone is limited as there are a lot of assignment and practical assessments that need to be done. Probably once a week she will have enough time to contact us...that and the fact that there is a time difference of a few hours.
Moving along to last night and the Awards Night...
Made it!!!
And what a feeling it was, when at the end they announced, as all the graduates stood on the stage:
'Ladies and Gentlemen, the graduating class of 2012'
And there stood our daughter. So proud of her, as this year for her has been the year from hell. But she made it, she passed! And we can be proud of her, not just academically, but in all the areas she has overcome, become stronger in herself. There have been times this year that as a 16 year old she has had to deal with issues that would have floored some adults.
And what a great feeling it was knowing that it was our last EVER awards night that we had to suffer through!! Some of the other parents were so envious. As we were walking out there were several saying how lucky we were.
Ok maybe it is not that bad, at least not now that they have changed the set up. The speeches were long though...very long :(
Back to ttwd now..
Did I tell you that it is almost 40 hours spank free? Oh, yes I did...
So I guess this is now the end of this blog :)
Monday, 12 November 2012
Weekend and Awards Night...
Well, what a weekend...
Friday was Valedictory Dinner for our daughters graduating class. Which of course I coped with, even though I do not like large groups of people.
Things I learnt from Friday night:
Don't get up from the table thinking The Silence is following behind.
Don't come back to the table and raise your voice in a quiet (well I thought it was) whisper.
Nor do you call him an jerk.
(Ok, so it was stressful and emotional, and I have not yet learnt how to deal with this)
Moving right along to Saturday...
All day at a conference...nearly 15 hours :( LOADS of people, and I was serving morning tea, lunch and afternoon tea. Plus dealing with issues of the teenage variety..and not my own teenager...
Hardly saw The Silence (which would of been a good thing), but blew it that night when I called him an idiot.
Then came the Distancing
Moving right along to today...Sunday.
Woke up feeling stressed already. Time to have some down, and alone time. Told The Silence that I was not going to church. HE decided, which is his right, that as the Spiritual leader and HOH of the house that I was going.
Along came a quick OTK, and another broken coat hanger...(seriously, at this rate I wont be able to hang anything!)
Said something else and The Silence told me to 'come back here!'
Um..NO (well we had guests in the house and I am sure they would have heard the coat hanger)
So off we went, me for once changing roles and being The Silence. Church was good, and we left, for a change after the first service to come home and spend some time together...
Yep, right after my shower and a sleep.
How many times does it take a person to learn that raising their voice and calling the HOH some name along the lines of jerk or idiot is not a good idea...and just where does one let control go? Well, at the start I guess. The start of DD.
So yet another spanking...and CT and another spanking and yet even more CT..
oh almost forgot..you don't call the HOH a whinge either....OK so it was not a good weekend at all.
I am now feeling more balanced and in a 'settled' place. Should of got a spanking before we left on Friday night and yesterday morning. Wondering if all the unbalanced feelings would of gone.
Is this where maintenance spankings and reminder spankings come in?
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New day..Monday...
Tonight is Awards Night....another thing that I hate (along with most parents that have to go). It is a long night of speeches, cranky parents because they cannot photograph their wonderful offspring. Parents fighting over the best seats, parents bragging about their kids being the best (if only they knew the truth).
Kids getting awards that they should not be getting...like the one who is getting the 'Spiritual Award', This award is for the person who has displayed the most Christian attributes during the year...ok, so sleeping around and destroying friendships is a Christian attribute? (Would like to point out that the same kid got the Character Award last year and there was a collective WHAT!! that went through the audience when it as presented..how come the teachers cannot see what the kid is actually like, when everyone else knows?)
Or this one...the Dux of the College....ok, so this kid is a teachers kid...cries at the drop of a hat that she has failed some assignment, pulls out all the stops about how upset she is that she could not do the work..so guess what? The teachers pull out all the stops and basically write the assignments for her.
Sounds like I am sucking on sour grapes...well, I am not. I am just a firm believer in 'give credit where credit it due' and you had better of earned it too. In the area of awards (especially school ones) then you had better of earned it and not kissed butts on the way to getting them.
Ok, rant over...darn, that 'settled place' is slowly disappearing.... Breathe, breathe..
Five days before we leave for our overseas trip. Not packed, have not even got the suitcases out. Usually I am packed and ready a few weeks before hand. Not so this time :(
There is so much else going on at the moment with conference's, graduations and STUFF! As much as I hate flying, I am looking forward to being able to just sit on the plane and relax. Not having to think about anything.
OH and two whole weeks of NO COOKING, NO CLEANING!! WOOHOO!!!!
Of course that also means two weeks of no blogging, or reading what is happening in your lives either :( :(
Well our room apparently does have internet, but whether blogland is a banned site or not, I have yet to find out. Facebook and anything else western is...so I am not holding my breath on this one :(
Well, better get this day started, sorry about the rants and such a long post. :)
Friday was Valedictory Dinner for our daughters graduating class. Which of course I coped with, even though I do not like large groups of people.
Things I learnt from Friday night:
Don't get up from the table thinking The Silence is following behind.
Don't come back to the table and raise your voice in a quiet (well I thought it was) whisper.
Nor do you call him an jerk.
(Ok, so it was stressful and emotional, and I have not yet learnt how to deal with this)
Moving right along to Saturday...
All day at a conference...nearly 15 hours :( LOADS of people, and I was serving morning tea, lunch and afternoon tea. Plus dealing with issues of the teenage variety..and not my own teenager...
Hardly saw The Silence (which would of been a good thing), but blew it that night when I called him an idiot.
Then came the Distancing
Moving right along to today...Sunday.
Woke up feeling stressed already. Time to have some down, and alone time. Told The Silence that I was not going to church. HE decided, which is his right, that as the Spiritual leader and HOH of the house that I was going.
Along came a quick OTK, and another broken coat hanger...(seriously, at this rate I wont be able to hang anything!)
Said something else and The Silence told me to 'come back here!'
Um..NO (well we had guests in the house and I am sure they would have heard the coat hanger)
So off we went, me for once changing roles and being The Silence. Church was good, and we left, for a change after the first service to come home and spend some time together...
Yep, right after my shower and a sleep.
How many times does it take a person to learn that raising their voice and calling the HOH some name along the lines of jerk or idiot is not a good idea...and just where does one let control go? Well, at the start I guess. The start of DD.
So yet another spanking...and CT and another spanking and yet even more CT..
oh almost forgot..you don't call the HOH a whinge either....OK so it was not a good weekend at all.
I am now feeling more balanced and in a 'settled' place. Should of got a spanking before we left on Friday night and yesterday morning. Wondering if all the unbalanced feelings would of gone.
Is this where maintenance spankings and reminder spankings come in?
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New day..Monday...
Tonight is Awards Night....another thing that I hate (along with most parents that have to go). It is a long night of speeches, cranky parents because they cannot photograph their wonderful offspring. Parents fighting over the best seats, parents bragging about their kids being the best (if only they knew the truth).
Kids getting awards that they should not be getting...like the one who is getting the 'Spiritual Award', This award is for the person who has displayed the most Christian attributes during the year...ok, so sleeping around and destroying friendships is a Christian attribute? (Would like to point out that the same kid got the Character Award last year and there was a collective WHAT!! that went through the audience when it as presented..how come the teachers cannot see what the kid is actually like, when everyone else knows?)
Or this one...the Dux of the College....ok, so this kid is a teachers kid...cries at the drop of a hat that she has failed some assignment, pulls out all the stops about how upset she is that she could not do the work..so guess what? The teachers pull out all the stops and basically write the assignments for her.
Sounds like I am sucking on sour grapes...well, I am not. I am just a firm believer in 'give credit where credit it due' and you had better of earned it too. In the area of awards (especially school ones) then you had better of earned it and not kissed butts on the way to getting them.
Ok, rant over...darn, that 'settled place' is slowly disappearing.... Breathe, breathe..
Five days before we leave for our overseas trip. Not packed, have not even got the suitcases out. Usually I am packed and ready a few weeks before hand. Not so this time :(
There is so much else going on at the moment with conference's, graduations and STUFF! As much as I hate flying, I am looking forward to being able to just sit on the plane and relax. Not having to think about anything.
OH and two whole weeks of NO COOKING, NO CLEANING!! WOOHOO!!!!
Of course that also means two weeks of no blogging, or reading what is happening in your lives either :( :(
Well our room apparently does have internet, but whether blogland is a banned site or not, I have yet to find out. Facebook and anything else western is...so I am not holding my breath on this one :(
Well, better get this day started, sorry about the rants and such a long post. :)
Saturday, 10 November 2012
LOL Day
This is my first Lol day! Yippeeee!
And I know I have lurkers...my page counter tells me so.
And as my lurkers will know, I have only been blogging and living the DD lifestyle for just over a month.
I would love to hear from you, even just a hello I am here :)
Sometimes it is really hard to make that first comment. It can be scary, as you sit there and try and decide to comment or not.
When I first commented (Stormy - Shelter in The Storm) I felt that everyone would know who I was. Silly really...
Then I started my own blog about my journey in Domestic Discipline. It was still hard to comment on other writers blogs though. I was still afraid that what I was doing was wrong, that I would be judged, or my comments not welcome, or what right did I have to comment on their blogs, or I am allowed in this community of DD bloggers?
But as I have found out, there is no judgement here, only support and a 'friendship' though virtual, is possibly more of a friendship you would have with someone face to face.
It is where we can be 'real', no holds barred, true down to earth people. The support here is amazing :)
So, if you are a lurker (I am a day behind in my part of the world, as I was thinking I have only been blogging for a month..can I do this? But it is still Friday somewhere) please leave a hello, don't be afraid.
I would love to 'meet' you :)
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