To say it has been a hell of a week would be putting it mildly.
The after effects of the early in the week, meltdown have been hanging around all week. Not for The Silence, but for me.
Things have not been going quite to plan this week, with both of us saying and doing things to get the back up of the other.
Having said that, The Silence has been stepping up in a way that he has never before. He seems to be going from strength to strength, while I seem to be taking one step forward and loads backwards.
I could blame it on PMS. I guess. Or I could blame it on the distancing that I cannot shake. Hard as I try.
It could also be because for over a week now, we have had no 'our' time. With school finished, and dance and band finished for the year, our time is now limited for being alone. Extremely limited.
And I know that there are some of you out there that have to live with someone constantly at home. I feel for you. I am not used to it at all.
It has put me out of kelter. Not even the days are spent to gather my thoughts and think things through. Take this post for instance, it has taken me a half hour to get to this point, as the daughter is filling out forms and keeps asking 'where is this, where is that' 'how do I do this'. SHEESH!
Frustration levels are high by the time The Silence comes home. So with the unresolved issues (on my part, not his) and the frustration that has built up during the day, and of course the distancing....well, not sure whether the butt is going survive the next spanking when the house is finally empty long enough to deal with anything.
Oh well, such is life.
There are things that I have to work through. I know this works, but sometimes I fight it, even though I want it. Seems so backwards really.
On the plus side, The Silence has shown a side of him that I never thought he possessed... and that is good.
A firm hand, and a 'I am not going to put up with this' attitude has made me stop and think several times in the last few days. Even though it has usually resulted in corner time.
Those Christmas Trees stuck in the corner of each room (which someone kindly suggested, so that I had something good to look at) are starting to look like a good idea. That and a few candy canes to munch on.
Oh well, I guess things will eventually get into perspective, fairly certain a lot of these feelings are the 'dregs' from the meltdown. Even though that was dealt with on the night.
Well, a lot of waffle....pretty hard typing with extras in the house.
Oh for some Silence.